Sometimes your expectations are met faster than you might think and you are suprised! I was operated on my eye soon after I arrived in Miami. I can't remember the date and can only remember three things from the whole proccess. I remember lying down on the bed and a young nurse walks in. She was pregnant and was very nice. She gives me an injection and even before she leaves the room I am in the "other side". I woke up who knows how many hours later and I was tied to the bed. I was kind of programed that I would have a huge eye patch covering my eye. So the other thing I remember was being coverd in pee. Yes pee, I felt myself wet imediatly after I woke up. The nurse, who I have no idea what she looked like came by as I called her and she recognized I was coming back to my senses. I remember she told me I was tied and I told her I was ok and to please untie me. She fell for it!!!! I said it in a soft form not to draw suspision and in my state coming out of anestesia it must have been instinctive. However as soon as she untied me I went right for what they were preventing. I ripped that patch right out and covered my left eye. I can see.... and no black spot either! I was happy as can be. In retrospect I was actually desperate to see if I still had my eye in there, so after I figured that it was there I got back to my anesthetic, relaxed state. I learned later that the tumor had been sent to Huston for analisis and that it was in fact in contact with my optic nerve. Dr. Tse decided to save my vision and leave the piece that was ahired to my optic nerve and live to deal with that another day. I was happy as can be. The next month was a waiting game as they took that long to figure it out. Meanwhile the tumor grew back and my vision was blurred again. Finally the results and the famous meeting afterwards. Frankly at that point I was more worrried as to when I would get rid of that blurred vision and I honestly expected to take a long time. 8 days into my first cycle of chemo I got my vision back and the blurr was gone. I was not expecting that but I was glad. Actually I though that no more chemo was needed and I felt like I just gained a year back. As it turns out it didn't worked that way and the rest is history. For now I will only say this, but very soon I will talk about salvation and the miracale which I was fortunate enough to recieve. I will dedicate a page to that, and I will also talk about false prophets and the business of the church. Part of me lives in total disgust as to how religion is practiced in some places they call "of God" and some men and women who call themselves Gods children or sons or what ever. I don't question God's work but I am still trying to find the reason he made so many succers!!! But more on that later.
Today was a swiming/running day. I had a 30 min run after my swim. I was indeed feeling very good and strong today. In the past days I had a talk with Coach K and among other things I had told him how worried I was regarding my running. I said all along I would not question my coach and I did not, I will remain true to that, but I felt stuck and I needed to address the issue. We talked for about 1/2 hour as he explained to me what was going on with me at this point and what I should expect. He was 100% right. Everything he told me was right on and all the changes were indeed happening. He also told me to be paitient and well I agree but I am who I am and I think he knows that by now so we can figure things out pretty well. I was not content with my coversation regarding my run, but I was convinced that Coach K was right and I should do what he was telling me. He told me among other things that it will get better with time and to take it easy. Ok we will try it his way!!! I do my after swim runs on a board walk that crosses from the city park all the way to the financial district (Parque Central to Hato Rey). About half the distance there is a road barrel. Like the ones used in road construction. I marks a huge hump on the side walk and I guess it was placed there for safety reasons and let people know to be careful in that area. That barrel and me have a history. It so happens that since I started doing that route I could always either reach the barrel or barely reach it before I had to turn back. I run 15 minutes out and then come back for the other 15 minutes. The barrel was sort of like a landmark for me but in the past weeks I had to push to reach it and then pay the price on the way back by having to rest or walk. Today, as I was walking out of the pool for my run I caught up with Alexandra as she was also on her way out for her run. A couple of other guys joined but they were staying inside the park and as I shared what my route was Alexandra joined the idea and said she would run that route also. So we got our watches ready and took off for our run. Alexandra and me......yeah right. So much for a partner, it was like just watching her go into the wind. Our run together lasted I would say all of 10 seconds before she was out of screaming range, but in my defense I could still see her up front and tell it was her. Anyway I concentrated on my run and kept my pace confortable but at a pace I had to work for. I continued for about 11 minutes until.....yes!!! you guessed, I greeted my good old friend the barrel and I still had 4 minutes to go. I was smiling because I felt really good and knew I could keep on running. In the end I must have placed a good 800 meters between me and that barrel before I had to get back. I turned around and extremely soon Alexandra passed by on her way back. I tried to lure her into stopping a minute for water but she did not bite and before I knew it she was once again only a distant person running in the same direction. I kept my pace and ran all the way back no resting or walking. Final toll was 2.44 miles in 30 minutes. That is a lot more than 2.12 miles I did last week on the same run. So what does this mean!! Coach was right, I have to be patient and all things will come together. I still have a long way to go and progress is slow in the running department but I am making lots of progress. I will do my long run tomorrow and I am shooting for another 50 miler on saturday on the bike. As it happened with my eye I was truly caught by surprise in the way I ran today and the way I am now able to run however short distance it is. I didn' expect this to happen today but whammmm it did and I am thrilled about it.
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